The Absence of Clarity
Sara Haile-Mariam | August 28, 2018

There are moments where my clarity is brilliant. Where who I am, and what I’m here to do, shines through so undeniably that I have no choice but to take action, and step forward, and keep moving with overwhelming optimism. And there are moments where confusion finds me. Where insecurity finds me. Where doubts find me. Where other people’s projections find me. Where the space between visions and present realities find me.

Free Thought
Sara Haile-Mariam | August 22, 2018

You’re conflating your “free thought” With the lies of white supremacy Drilled in from your infancy Filled in so indignantly Do you think that this monopoly On how we’ve all been taught to be Lends itself to being free? Feeds on truth’s humility? You wanna talk for a man But right there that’s where you’re wrong The man is just a letter And the system is the song And the song’s been going on

Whole Healing
Sara Haile-Mariam | August 22, 2018

I often see people share work, including my own, with the caveat of “listen up white people” or “white people you need to read this.” Do you know what that does? It marginalizes my work and centers whiteness as its audience. It tells Black and Brown People that my work isn’t for them. When the truth is that my work is first and foremost for me. Which means my work is first and foremost for them.

We Owe You Nothing
Sara Haile-Mariam | August 21, 2018

Most of my clarity was born from contrast; the result of years of bending, breaking and shaping myself to meet my perception of other peoples expectations of me. Performing to meet expectations that were ultimately rooted in white supremacy and patriarchy. I understand white supremacy because I have the insight of participating in a system that taught me to betray myself. I grew up in overwhelmingly white spaces. I was intensely and relentlessly bullied as a child, and I believe compliance became a way of coping.

White Feelings
Sara Haile-Mariam | August 20, 2018

The work to dismantle white supremacy IS ITSELF often clouded by white supremacy. By the effort, and expectation, surrounding who gets centered and what it means. By the attempts to disengage with the substance of what we’re saying by focusing on the tone of how we said it. By acting as if your participation in this conversation, in this effort towards healing, is solely for our benefit. It is not. Nor should it be.

Black Lives Matter (Unequivocally)
Sara Haile-Mariam | August 15, 2018

The need to respond to Black Lives Matter with anything other than: yes, unequivocally, is evidence of where Anti-Blackness lives. There is a deep discomfort with acknowledging our humanity without a caveat or a qualifier or a “only if this is met first” and even then it’s a false negotiation. “All Lives” Blue Lives” are both responses that are more focused on disproving than affirming. It’s meant to start an argument because what’s being unsaid is that Black Lives don’t matter enough to have a moment of uninterrupted recognition.